7/15/18 -- 1:21 PM
Oh me oh my oh.
Am I in a relationship?
Life is just really weird right now. So many things are going on. Like, I'm
going to a new store in a few weeks, for some reason. I'm seeing a girl who's
just incredibly exciting and fun, but I'm not sure where it's going. I'm going
to be a criminal as of Monday, all because I'm a moron.
It's just... Just so exciting and wild and terrifying.
I should write about McKenzie, I suppose? She's 23, from Minnesnowta, graduated
from U of M (Minnesota not Michigan) studying computer engineering, interned at
Intel, and we only met because her job made her move here. it's unclear for how
long she'll be around. She makes me nervous.
She hasn't been in a relationship for two years. She brought that up herself;
are we in a relationship? I'm afraid to ask, I think? I definitely really like
her. It's kind of weird, though. her ex, who she is still close with, bought
tickets to fly out here to try and get back together with her, and when he found
out I had stayed the night at her place he _freaked_ _out_. Not sure how to
really feel about all of this. It's kind of entertaining, adn I'm trying to stay
my distance from the whole thing. She seems confident they won't be getting back
together. Which is nice.
I do not know if I could handle it if they did.
She just makes me feel so comfortable. Like I can trust her. I like that, it
makes me feel safe. She's smart too, which just drives me all kinds of crazy.
She's verbally committed to going to the Death Cab concert with me on my
birthday, which is reassuring and exciting.
She seems to really like me. Which is fascinating. I have no idea what it could
be about me.
Why do we just seem to connect so well?
Not sure what it is. I'm not going to think too hard about it; I might get too
caught distracted, talk myself out of it, tense up, be high strung...
I want to keep it simple.
Okay wow well something bizarre just happened. Somebody just did a "drive-by" at
Starbucks and just threw their phone number on the table next to me. How does
one deal with that?
They have nice handwriting.
But I'm shallow as hell and did not see what they looked like at all.
What is going on in my life actually though.
This is just fucking wild.
I guess I'll take the compliment.
I empathize hard with the method though. I wouldn't have even done that much. I
wouldn't be with McKenzie right now if she hadn't initiated a lot of it.
Just a bunch of wild shit going on.
I'm trying to come up with some future plans, but I am not terribly certain what
it is that I want to be doing. I feel like graduate school is the only option
left for me at this point. Basically just putting my life on pause for six
years. But what's next after that? What do I go for anyways? What school do I
even go to?
I'll have to figure that out in the next five months.
I think those are all the updates that I have for now. it's been so long. So
much has gone on. Shit is crazy.
I'm excited for the future. That hasn't been the case in a long, long time.
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