7/26/18 -- 10:24 AM
Today has been excellent. Lazy, slow, perfect. I haven't smiled so much in so
long. When was the last time I woke up so happy? How does she do this to me? I
don't understand how these feelings are happening.
Holding her just feels so natural.
I hope she feels this too? I'm pretty certain she does. I'm trying to be more
expressive here. It's hard to vocalize things, but I'm trying. She motivates me
so much, somehow. I don't fucking get it.
But hey, it's great. Don't question good things, right?
Because they might disappear before you know it.
Don't spend all that time worrying. Worry later.
Worry later.
My mood is climbing. Good things are happening and I'm feeling good about them.
About life in general. I don't want to die. Which is _crazy_. I haven't felt
like that in... forever, maybe. Which is probably why I am lowkey terrified of
the crash.
Oh boy oh boy oh boy oh boy.
I'm not lyinng to myself anymore. Which is incredible. I don't get it. I'm glad
I no longer feel the need for the self-deception. My life is improving so much.
It's amazing.
Everything is finally on the up and up, and that isn't wholly wrong anymore.
It's all good.
Everything is okay.
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